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I am alive. Never has a statement proved more powerful than now.
That I, me, am alive is such an ordinarily profound occasion. My beating heart being so full that I thought I might die!
Oh such a shock it was to me to be happy. I mistook the fullness for ache and the tears rushing down my face for pain.
My body so unused to the feeling of joy that I thought these were my last moments.
Oh hallowed be thy name that I get to see this day. So many times were I to cut my string but you prevented me!
So many times I suffered in complete agony to be filled with such ecstasy!
My face once contorted and askew while writhing with mourning now sore with cheer and gladness as if the sun were shining down just for me.
Oh delight my old friend! How ecstatic am I to see you again!
How I pray you continue to dwell here forever. For while you may come and go I know in me you will always have a home.
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2. |
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uh, yeah
cop me a nick, then i got me an eight yo
im feeling so great but i'm hurting inside
wiz in the leaf, oh, i feel so complete
when the cannabis healing me up in my mind
swapping spit as we passing hits, i'm a pacifist as we cyphing spliffs
ima vibe with this, until the sun's down
run now before i take your bitch
that's the drugs talking on the flow i breathe, its c.o.l.d
I sly when i wear my sleeves
the masculinity back, what you say about me?
i'm j a c k when the trades on me, ay
i'm shmacked
im gone, nah little nigga leave me alone
you not finna go kill my vibe
we kick, push and have a good time
when i techteck, stake 4 came, i aint even upset
two step to the beat when im off meds
smoking this pen as a freshman, high off life, didn't get caught yet
hilda in the back of this madness, two souls in the dark running rampant
dominos on the floor, playing travis, stargaze in la flame of this magic
so anxious, left at eleven, thirty
im thirsty for pussy, dem hips and those curves got me frisky (e e)
Lust, i fucked so much, everything feels empty
And i'm a good kid in a maad city
now i'm faded off of angel dust what?
Stressing heavy insomnia
Medication that Ranidom
So, deceiving I’m floating
I’m glad were grieving this moment
Stones and bath water
Temperature on a breeze counter Fahrenheit
Baking soda that vinegar
123 and its hopeless
Been alone and just breathing
Sometimes I fear that you need me
Cause anxiety creeping
I’m crying picking the pieces
Bad decisions this rhythm
Step on one just forget it
Money mayhem this river
I cry in tears of expenses
You can hold on to me
Or remind me my efforts
But in heaven or hell
Which side decides if you special
This remote satisfaction
Life attracts your reaction
Then delivers the madness
Now your tipping the casket
Guess I’m back above lust
Oh babe you love me too much
I just can’t get enough
Attached I’m damaged and stuck
When it’s over remember the times we fought and we shared
Cause it’s funny how much you hurt knowing when I’m right here
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3. |
CHAOS
02:24
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Huh, yeah, I preserve through the surface, and piercing my fears away
The church is getting the worship, i’m surfing before the waves
im going through with motions, im hoping i break the cycle of feeling so goddamn hopeless
Im chosen to be one to killing my foes with guns.
I light a hole through your gut and praying i see my sun.
Im using my Ak's to penetrate heaven's gates to find a solid solution instead of being a stalemate in my life
Who would’ve thought I could make it through a year of college
Who would’ve thought i’d be standing here 20 years old
Who would’ve thought i would be alone feeling the silence
Who would’ve Thought I would be a better man than my own
life’s funny dawg, Am i the fucking clown?
are you around when the petal doesn’t hit the ground?
tired of feeling lost, i’m tired of feeling shitty
I gotta stay strong & be involved to help me city
I wasn’t like this before, I was righteous and bold wit the coldest of flows
and you heard it from Cole, when im murking the shows at vsu
im immune to the bullshit yall throw at me
keep faith brother man we gonna find the peace, by any means we sharing greens
smoking trees
my love so vivid when it's written, by nas
east side where we living, doves flys comes by when its finished
2000, i was born to different, i am a nigga that speaks of the rivers
bathe in the royal blood of my ancestors (bathe in the royal blood of my ancestors)
(rest in peace mac miller )
fanaticize my demise, i keep the rope with me close
enslave my body and mind, i found my peace down below
niggas be rachet and clink, clinging to the past
lamenting on feast inside the beast, and it rinks
Feeling all the masses decrease, cease the moment for once
let me free, still i wake up, tangled in the depth of sheets
seeking of validation, self worth in the price of your hands
put em to work, build a foundation of love
so nobody can hurt, fake bitches taking shit
instead of handling business, talk what you eat
sick of disses, wash ya plate, carrying all the self hate
leaving your stains, telling niggas how to live ya life
find your own, bring more peace to ya broken soul
tying in the memories, when we shared our shoes
my stupid ass kept running into you
left me tripping in my lingering attachments to you
man what a fool, native state of mind get you fucked up
pure hearted like the moon, wish i learn much quicker than few
still i dreamt about ending my life into two seconds
depending on old friendships to harvest these wounds
Nineteen, feeling like being alone is a flu
where god when you need em to relive all these demons and
feasting on my weak organs, recording on the socials
just coping with this internal bleeding
fill me up with hope and joy, no cap, the fake warmth wasn’t doing good
dug my head in the shadows to find solace in that
heavy rain was hitting my scorching top
get a sweater young one, fend of yourself thru the storm
that’s why i don’t take hugs anymore, lay my corpse in the evening
so nobody can see me freaking bleeding nigga
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4. |
IMMURE
00:50
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Me and my homies be chilling, just tryna feel the vibes
just wanna get my life right but stay criticized
Been a joke all my life, niggas sympathize
Just have to make out this world, help me visualize
so many fake people with the darkest of lies
Won't stop grinding nigga, till i hear the thrill and cries.
Came from the bottom now, I am shooting for the skies
why bother looking for the gold, while i got the mine
shifting exhibition of my insane shrine
i am beneath the mask, Identities personified (persona 5)
thats why i see jokers lying on the other side
just keep ya ace up nigga or its do or die
yuh
Quarantine got you bored yuh, do a spin with a sword yuh
get dis in a cord huh, body mind so divorce yuh
covid 19 fucked up, 2020 done fucked up
covid 19 fucked up, 2020 done fucked up
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5. |
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How i apply music to my art?
Uh, like i said before, its a fucking..
Whatever im feeling, actually since music
You know, I like i said, music is at like the center of my entire existence so
Verse 1:
back on my bullshit, the stove that i’m cooking is stirring up poison and pain.
Of the hate i’m afraid to let go, cuz my soul is in a terrain of my enemies.
who took my love to threaten me.
who took my trust to damage me.
Mentally, emotionally and also physically.
walking around just cope with my thoughts
skating the block while i’m chilling with tahj
big mon ting when i’m twisting my locks
smoking a spliff with the rasta in charge
took a year off to experience my youth
nineteen now and it’s hard to consume
that a year went by, when my best friend died
my tears had dried while growing my roots
Hook X2:
i, Mysticwolf with the reign
cooking beef with the steak
born and raised in the vile where niggas get killed and tryna be fake
You ain’t about say, say you pull up with ya gang
lone wolf in the rain, always shrouded in the pain
Verse 2:
hopped on a new one with mystic, they cannot handle the heat that we bring
I gave her pipe then I made that girl sing
aye
noragamii for the win, not a peasant cause she call me her king
looked in her eyes and we instantly zinged, remember the days
we'd chill at the park and make out with me with your hair in the wind
but now it's all gone I guess it don't matter new thing and her cake way fatter
she call me a baker the way I beat batter
a year went by and my mood got sadder
I lost my damn head call me mad hatter
wait kanashi is my mood
pass the strap reload
unhappy type of vibe
hop in the whip and ride
Hook x2
Verse 3
I stay in room and then cut on my wrist.
Nowhere2go helped stay on my shit. Wanna give up, i have nowhere to run.
i resort to my gun but i somehow resist.
my consciousness a monstrous disease, my knowledge doesn’t equate to a degree
Just why is karma breaking me to pieces, a problem happens every single weekend.
Just why?
My life keeps getting worst and i try to traverse all my demons
my preconceived notions, my life has no meaning
i even tired smoking and meditation doesn’t help
paranoia by itself is the reason i yell.
i melt in a depression, im helpless, it heavy, ready to drop all the thoughts that been resting.
*hook x2*
Verse 4
think im getting board
Vrodie pass my switch
start to play games with your sis
didn't know I had it like this
flow so tight with a lisp
bad man run dis, blood clat bun fish
me and mystic we lit
you do not want this inside I'm dead
dearly departed, I'll chop off your head
a gaza mi say, so you know we dead
batty bwoy, betta watch wah u say
lands mine, better watch where you step
my camp betta know where u dea
sad boi so you know what I rep
still alive but inside I'm dead
*hook x2*
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6. |
JANUARY 13TH
01:03
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always stacked with them dividends
black excellence, benjamin with them franklins
feeling so numb again, batarangs with Bruce Waynes
trouble lingering, put the city on my back
and these hoes on the side, cause my cape getting bloody everytime i fight a crime
twitter always feeding off the false media
every women in my path, seem getting shitter and my feelings in between of em
my heart is always suffering, im playing whole lotta red to get more devilish
and i'm relishing decisions that'll make me rich
i'm trying finish off college just to start a business
a lot of kanye's feeling so heartless
i got a sweatshirt now trying find my solace
demolishing all this trust that i had
niggas stuck in the mud, when im trying to get a buzz
an uchina looking for a rin, sights getting dim, all my life i've been lost in the mist
all the rage went ablaze when clenching up my fist
doomsday everyday when i'm looking at wrist
how time went by, i am 21 now
january 13th, what a time to be alive
you know the fuckin vibes
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7. |
2000
01:28
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2000, i was born, can't fathom that im still alive.
outside, and i see a storm, mixed signals, mixed signs.
so tired of just hearing lies, mostly of all of just being kind.
took advantage for the last time, now you'll witness my state of mind.
isolated, bewildered, all because you wanna be selfish.
no progression, just plain filler, coldhearted, careless.
i hate being so helpless, bitches never wanna be cherished,
and now im causing some ravage, which made me a savage.
And its real, its a done deal.
I pull a sword with hylian shield, slay the beat then protect my soul
all the pressure is too much to wield.
disintegrating and im molding out.
like ray gun just shot my heart.
an old nigga feeling much doubt.
might as well move and go to the south
messing up all of these takes, mindset feeling so taint
drugs every single which-way, i be escaping the pain
depression isn't a phase, mind is so spacious
out of this world, everything else is feeling so vacant
pieces and pages, i'm going thru status
living this life man, deep in the matrix
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8. |
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Never knock another mans grind
Yea the sky might be cloudy, but it’ll soon shine
Got a bad feeling in my spine
All I got is time
Hope I’m using mine right
I’m just a nigga, all I want is the limelight
Look at me, you could tell that I shine bright
My life my life my life my life
Wasn’t in the sunshine
Shit, I was confined
I couldn’t find my purpose, my head burning
For a long while, I thought I was a burden
But the world kept turning, I started learning
That I’m a certain person
The best version of who I am
Jay fucking Cinema, type of nigga to never give a damn
Middle fingers up to my uncle sam
Off the top like Rob Van dam
I’m the man
What you gonna do when shit hits the fan
I’m just sitting back
Counting the blessings in my hand
I’m much more than a flash in the pan
Trying to be paid in full, thinking of a master plan
Verse 2:
Thinking of a masterplan
a masterplan to get up out of this house
musical drought
im feeling doubt crawling all in my head
words that i dread
putting out for world to listen
im pessimistic
that's a contradiction
to be an artist where the art is
i plant gardens
to find my hyacinths, my higher sense isn't always common sense
that's what my aunt said
i tread lightly, over the people that i have in life
cuz one little stitch in your skin circles the whole plight
i wear my heart on my sleeves
the feelings shoot thru the breezee
my mind is subtle and gentle
my pride is huddled with peace
walking down the streets
typing all these rhymes
but there's thieves in the nightfall
preying my demise
uh
i had learn overtime
that generosity never paid me but a dime
i had to get quarter of my time
cause bitches took a half
now im swimming off shore
cause i'm trying built a raft
of myself
to find my worth
by reading booking & exercising just the build the herd
of self confidence
& inner peace
affirmations on repeat
distancing the world & my mind so it's 6 feet
talking to myself and the music so its therapy
(******) ride or die, i swear to god i love my bestie
auntie ima graduated on time, you just wait and see
you just wait and see
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9. |
SHINE
00:57
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Ay, ay
I’m butterfly when im energized
i’m seeking light through your vivid eyes
and I love flowers.
and I love nature.
I'm a star boy with a lightsaber.
with a high top and ain’t talking abel
i’m a lone wolf who just writes fables
fuck labels
fuck bills
my intuition will prevail.
I'm the only male in my family.
that blooms through the insanity.
They will always love me through my highs and lows.
Never needed hoes to comfort me.
i'm stronger now and i know my worth
i'm a capricorn with the highest perks
Have god on my side
faith on side
if i had neither, probably suicide
i know when i'm down bad
i call up in his Name
i need to inherit my light
then maybe things will change
I ain't crying tears of pain.
moreso the tears of joy
because I spoke to the sun
when he hears my voice
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10. |
BLACK ROSE (SPOKEN WORD)
01:45
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The beauty of a plant stems from its roots
how its nurtured
how it matures and how it grows
how comes a black rose isn't acknowledged
why it is determined by its appearance?
why not its characteristics?
how come its constantly shunned and misunderstood by its design and color?
That's how I feel about my pigment sometimes.
scared to blossom
scared to overcome my obstacles
scared accept any help from anyone
scared to called the police on certain days
because my color perceives an ugly trait.
out of the norm, why it is so hard to conform in my natural space
I wish I knew the answer but I don't.
i swallowed my pride within my harden exterior
feeling hopeless
my flower is starting to rot
weakened, unable to sprout my petals of happiness
unbearable pain
my root been graved of countless amount of mistakes and stains due to my oblivious ways and selfish craves.
my petals start falling gradually
I lose my luster and glow, my hope is fading drastically.
I bloom in black
stuck in a taboo of hate and self destruction.
vulnerability sucks when you’re used for everyone’s puppets
de-attach to the poison strings
i'm trying to cut off
if so that's why i keep on running until my coffin calls me
nobody can be trusted when they formed your darkness
black rose
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11. |
DAYBYDAY (feat. KAMI.K)
02:23
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an early morning made my world with your hands
show me the sky thru your eyes
we found the light in our past
the touch ignite what we have
painted the sheets with our scent
Whispering psalms on my neck
my temple frame just for you
Head in my arms you repent
we speak in tongues when we talk
I taste your soul through your lips
This narrow road that we walk
you pave the way for the kiss
I used to pray for this feeling
I lost my way
i was young
nineteen shots in dark
a cry for help that i ain't come
you still got scars on your skin.
You used to play with the flames
you said it hurt but it helped
For once I finally felt sane
four months apart and i grew
I know the feelings aint changed
I feel each verse when we kiss
I write the book day by day
Verse 2:
I write this book daybyday yea
Always-
Uh
Still loving you still this day (okay)
I’ll never forget your face (alright)
Your sun shining bright, baby you’re my twin flame (My twin flame)
It’s insane
What you did for me and you
The way we grew
I wish that I could turn back time
Cuz baby baby you know I love ya (Ooh baby baby)
Invite you to my space cuz baby I just wanna hold ya
Ooh baby, you know I love you (Ooh baby baby)
For eternity I wanna hold ya
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12. |
DENNIS
02:52
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woke up this morning
i reach for my phone
voicemails stay bussing
couldn't leave it alone
then i caught a slight sliver of the death on my phone
then my body had retracted from the depth of my soul
frozen in place
couldn't find the words to replace
of all the times we spent alive laughing, splashing the paint
baby blue tears
filled up the room as i pray
that everything's a nightmare of the stamp of my fears
you was a father figure to me
meant the whole world to me
you had filled the fucking gaps that i had lack, it was a duty.
made me to a proper man that i can stand and smile proudly
raised me like i was your sons and that i love i needed dearly
cause my father couldn't fulfill the role on his own
left me out to fucking rot to the roots of my bones
went to atone, fabrication straight to his dome
trauma packing thru my rapping by the way u threw stones
left me alone, sorrows carries true to my songs
mane the hate be growing deeper on the canvas i had drawn
and all that tough love, is what a nigga needed
and every holiday your presence had filled up the ceiling
and all the gems u sent my head is really quite revealing
it's such a shame you couldn't see your boys journey deepen
and although your gone, spirit running thru
we following your steps till the day we meet you again
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13. |
PYROTECHNICS
00:56
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i went dc with tunes with my lil nigga richie
got the crimson Carti on me while we listening to jay z
put the fragrance on my body like I'm RiRi selling fenty
& you know my name is reggie
cuz my body's fucking ready
got my hand behind the wheel and now I'm pushing out the Chevys
got shoutout my birthday twin for the tickets up in philly
now im grooving and im moving
milly rocking in city
and im pockets looking silly cuz that refund ticket just hit me
and im doing all these pictures now im making it a movie
and i got the toolly ready if u niggas wanna test me
put that iron through his temple now he made it through the wire
got the metal in my mouth like i was kanye breathing fire
doing wheelie in the villey now I'm burning out my tire
i aint smithin when im jadenin so im calling it syre
I ain't stressin when I'm blazing cuz im tryna to get higher
now im seeing northern lights, brodie preaching to the choir
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14. |
NOIR
03:35
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Now it’s time to talk about my insecurities
2018, worst year of my life.
i lost x and my pride died with him
during graduation what fucking celebration
man what a time, shittest man alive.
suicide creeps up in my dreams,
masturbate to women in damn bed sheets
took, stole & rapped lyrics that wasn’t even me,
lost my high school honey to my best friend.
hate my voice and the way i speak
applying pressure on my wrists to see how i much i bleed
walking around campus so deceased.
Feeding off the negativity from society
and how it's treated nigga since the age of 17
nigga
Since eighteen, questioning my sexuality
breathing in the toxic in my lungs to just strain out my memories
Microdosing weed and henny, those my favorite remedies
i'm sick and tired, of being sick and tired
sicking of running from the life that god has set for me.
I hate anxiety, chop my souls in the ground, Madvillany
i carry it around like its a living Pedigree
i fail to see the vision that these niggas had painted me
eyes faded from this weed .. i cant see a thing
i'm just gonna grab a drink..
It's just so crazy man
god’s always for some reason
paints the hardest challenges to the strongest soldiers and shit
Its always a struggle for real niggas like me
ask me how I see the world wit my eyes low
the smoke around my face
Im fighting pain in my torso
the ear ringing with ur name
and the place that I forgo
i'm lost inside the sanctum of my ways
imma sanctum for yuh weight
I fell face first on ya pavement
That’s still where I lay
I grow fonder as the days move
blurry in a haze
i been peeping from a skewed view
my psyches slow decay
i smoke through a q a day
these cookies eating at my brain cells
and i'm still only home in the east where my pops ?
rest his soul
probably where i wanna to be
down below
i been growing cold at the feet
ever tombstone i meet pull me closer to my final breath
when things fall apart find me hanging in the breeze wind
rocking me to sleep
Product of the holes that I frequent tumble in the deep end it all for some peace
just let it go man
let it go
let it go
let it go
Man i can't
The last 5 years i've been fucking stress
Pleasing all these bitches let me get off my chest
Bitching about ya problems
All day and night
Took me as joke when i gave u some advice
Crackers fucking my dreams, like ms. Odell
Bitch gave me only c's
Wish that i would fail
So much i had switch my major
And now you set back a whole year in the chamber
What is life?
i stayed up all night
Pushing graphic designs
Told me "wasn't enough"
"put that shit in the crafts"
Said u "wasn't gonna make it
Reconsider yo path"
I am mysticwolf bitch
Fuck feelings fall to that
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15. |
OUTOFREACH!
01:51
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dont where to go, dont what to do
i've been at this school,fucking too long
wasted all my funds
wasted all my time
tryna chase friends
bled my art in rhymes
calluse on my hands
carried niggas weight
all their trama too
there is no escape
drained the pain away
tryna cosplay
haven't showered yet
my temple's in decay
where was god at?
i even barely prayed
cuz when my uncle died
you never showed face
bitch im suffering
yes im dying
they only show you roses
when yo time ends
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